O Allah,Make Me Strong

salam

fragile moment.
when it comes to mother.

i may be laughing on the outside
but i cry alone on the inside.

i tell friends about it
yet the heart seems to be more in pain
more afraid
of that thing that shouldn't be said
of that thing that i wouldn't say.

i tell the heart to be strong
but it doesn't listen.

i tell Allah to make it strong
for only by doing that
this heart seems to be able to make it.

O Allah for whatever happens
i know it happen for the sake of the believers
and with that
i leave everything
everything
in the hand of you
O Allah.

고해 by 임 재 범

salam..
                                                                                          

I've never been touched by a song for quite a while now, but this is really..
i first heard this on Winwin, in fact i saw it with the original singer,Yim Jae Bum coming as Guest on that show.
actually, it's not the first time to hear that name. but to see him for the first, it struck me.
something about this man amazed me...
and his voice is obviously no joke i tell ya.
this song titled Confession, 고해 in Hangul, i already heard the recorded version but i tell you what, the live version is much much Much More COOL! :D
so enjoy it!



어찌합니까
What should be done
어떻게 할까요
What should I do
감히 제가 감히 그녀를 사랑합니다
I dare, I dare to love her
조용히 나조차 나조차도 모르게
To live quietly and pretending to have forgotten
잊은척 산다는건 살아도 죽은겁니다
That is a life that is just like death

세상의 비난도 미쳐보일 모습도
The criticism of the world and the portrayal of me as a madman
모두 다 알지만
I know of it all
그게 두렵지만 사랑합니다
I am afraid of it all but I love you

어디에 있나요
Where are you?
제 얘기 정말 들리시나요
Can you really hear me?
그럼 피 흘리는 가엾은 제 사랑을 알고 계신가요
Then do you know of my poor, bleeding love?
용서해주세요
Please forgive me
벌하신다면 저 받을께요
If you were to punish, I will gladly accept it
허나 그녀만은 제게 그녀 하나만 허락해 주소서
But, her, please allow me, just her and her only

출처:임재범 (Lim Jae Bum) - 고해 (Confession)

Edited:
for those who read this post, i know at the beginning of the song, the intro and the choir were like the one of the church's but, it's not like i'm touched by a church song. if you listen to the original version you'll find no intro and the choir at the middle.it's just a love song. and i'm impressed both by the song and lyrics and the singing voice :))

엄마

I'm not a good daughter..
No, not at all.
I couldn't even answer my mother
When she said those words.

"Dh mu belaja la rrajin duk dinung..rrajin sket"

I'm afraid to say yes.
I'm afraid that thatwill make me a liar.
To my mother.

Mother,know that there's never a moment that this daughter didn't miss you ..
there's never a moment that this daughter didn't feel sorry towards you..

Mother,I'm so sorry to you because I'm not a good daughter to you.
T_T

Thousands Miles Apart

salam

though we are thousands miles apart.
xpe..facebook kan ade...

berFB chat ngan si cilik.aina syakirah.8 tahun.

Syaa Qirah: saalam
Norhafiza Ngah: wasalaaaaam
Syaa Qirah: buat apa?

Norhafiza Ngah: xde buat ape...kirah buat ape? dah pukul 10.30 
Syaa Qirah: x chiting ngan mok ja lah. mok ja balik x bulan 12

Norhafiza Ngah: x...kenape ? ade ape bulan 12?

Syaa Qirah: x cikgu adik nk kahwin nanti. kenapa x balik
Norhafiza Ngah: ooo...cikgu adik.adik pegi la. mokja xyah pegi xpe.
Syaa Qirah: kenapa mok ja x balik?
Norhafiza Ngah: ooo mane ade cuti bulan 12. raya je ade cuti..kenape adik nak mokja balek?
Syaa Qirah: saje boleh duduk ngan mok ja makan kuah cikmik
Norhafiza Ngah: hahaha...kuah cikmik? ape tu?
Syaa Qirah: ye betul
Norhafiza Ngah: ape kuah cikmik?mokja x penah makan pon
Syaa Qirah: kuai cikmak
Norhafiza Ngah: heh? ape tu? xtau pon. hahaha. tunggu mokja balek raya taun depan la makan kuai cikmak ni...
Syaa Qirah: ok bossss
Norhafiza Ngah: hahaha. kirim salam ibu. belajar rajin-rajin
Syaa Qirah: ok bossss. kuih cekmek lah salah ;)
Norhafiza Ngah:  hahaha. ni ibu yang bagitau ke ni?
Syaa Qirah: ye3
Norhafiza Ngah: cekmek ke... hahaha mokja pon teringin la cekmek. lame dah x makan
Syaa Qirah: adik dah makan
Norhafiza Ngah: mane dapat?
Syaa Qirah: ada kat sini
Norhafiza Ngah: pos kat mokja la.hehehe
Syaa Qirah: alah mokja balik lah kenapa orang tu x bagi mok ja balik?
Norhafiza Ngah: hahaha.mane ade orang x bagi mokja balek
Syaa Qirah: yu lah kang dia garang
Norhafiza Ngah: sape yang garang? hahaha. xde cuti kekeke
Syaa Qirah: ye ke?
Norhafiza Ngah: ha ah. yu tu university ke?
Syaa Qirah: ye lah x tahu ke?
Norhafiza Ngah: hahahha mane la mokja nak tahu...oo so yu la yang garang...haaa memang pon garang,xbagi cuti....
Syaa Qirah: yeye.alah x balik ke umah mok tok?
Norhafiza Ngah: x...adik la balek. ganti mokja teman tok
Syaa Qirah: alah mokja lah balik.
 ...
Syaa Qirah: mok ja.bye i:* you. :-*
Norhafiza Ngah: bye.tdo2.i :-* you too.
Syaa Qirah: bye mokja tutup dulu
Norhafiza Ngah: ok ok2. mok ja tutup sekarang. last2. i :-* you. salam
-tutup chat-


and another FB chat with her ends.
this has became routine for me. ye la ni je la cara nk berindu-rinduan ye dhak? hehhee

to adik,
if the yu (university) x garang, dah lame mokja beli tiket flight balek,dgn syarat suh ibu support la. hehe.
miss you too damn much,my sweetie.

kierah - from right.chronological order

above.from right - kierah&mokna.ibu . tok&kierah . ibu&kierah__below.from right - tok&kierah . kierah,ayah&ibu . mokja&kierah

The Chronicles of An Orange-coloured Cat Named Renji

Salam
                                                                                                    

Dalam byk2 kucing yg menetap di rumah Mak Ngah ade seekor kucing,dibg name Renji sbb die oren (orenji=renji). oren head to toe. saling x tumpah mcm garfield.kekeke. Renji membesar dgn sihat oleh jagaan rapi Mak Ngah dan anak bongsunya Pitty. Renji menjadi seekor kucing yg tough bdnnya tp bila kucing liar mau carik gaduh,die awl2 lg dh naek rumah menyorok diblkg tuan die.kekeke. Walau demikian dia sgt disayangi oleh keluarga Mak Ngah.

Malangnya,suatu hari Renji hilang entah kemane. walau ditunggu x pulang2 ke rumah Mak Ngah. Seminggu berlalu ia x juga pulang2. Mak Ngah dan keluarga menganggap si Renji sudah meninggal. Kata org tua2, kalo kucing tinggalkan tuannya, tu tandanya dia nk mati. Tidak mahu mati di hadapan tuan nya. Wallahu'alam lah kesahihannya.

Kisahnya si Renji ini tidak habis di sini shj. Hampir setgh tahun kemudian muncul 2 ekor kucing. Yg menghairankan  keluarga Mak Ngah adalah ke2-2 ekor kucing tersebut berkaler oren! saling x tumpah seperti Renji. Kediaman Mak Ngah bukanlah yg dikelilingi jiran2 yg padat. Rumah kayu di puncak Bukit Nenasi. Amat jrg sekali kucing jiran akn ke rumah Mak Ngah. Dtgnya dua ekor kucing tersebut tanpa segan silu ke dapur dan membaham makanan kucing2 yg mendiami rumah Mak Ngah. Kate Pitty, ank bongsu Mak Ngah: "huh ye wak macang rumoh ye diri. mari2 makang dapo". Maka terlintas la di fikiran si Pitty satu teori berkenaan dua ekor kucing misteri itu dan berkata pada Mak Ngah.: "tah tah ni anok Renji mok ok? Renji tinggal wasiat suruh balek umah tuan ayah dia (yakni Mak Ngah)". Mak Ngah hanya tertawa mendgr kate2 anak bongsunya.

Semenjak hari itu, 2 ekor kucing itu di bg name Renji II dan Oyen (Oren). Renji II diberi kepada yg berbulu oren seluruh badannya sebagai ingatan kepada arwah Renji. hehehe. Maka Renji II dan Oyen menjadi penghuni tetap rumah kayu atas Bukit Nenasi.

-Tammat-

Renji II

Renji II_2

Oyen

Renji I

Renji I_suave in his 'forest' (his forest=semak)

p/s: walaupon susur galur dua kucing oren itu masih tidak pasti dan mungkin tidak akan dikenalpasti, Mak Ngah dan keluarga menjaganya dgn rapi, tiada kurang sedikit pun sbgmnn Renji I dulu dijaga.

---Reader's note---

This story is nearly 99% true except for the conversations and some other trivial things. the storyline remain unchanged.

Update: For those who read my blog about oyen and renji, last night my sister texted me saying that Oyen has died.(T_T)