i aint letter-type

salam to all...

hey there...how r u? hows ur iman? doing good? alhamdulillah
then, the first post waht i would be typing about? hmmm...

ok actually quite a couple of days ago, i have severe sickness taking over me.. terasa hati syndrome.. u know why i wrote syndrome here bcoz medically, syndrome means a compilation of manifestations shown by a certain disease... then what r the manifestations for this terasa hati sickness?

yeah.. bila kamu terasa maka kamu akan:
--tarik muka kelat
--muncung sedepa
(yo so childish la u...ok2 but i bet all of u hv done the same as what i have when u feeling saket hati on ppl)
apa yg ak buat?






--DIAM--





ni mmg hobi ak kalo ak terasa
i thought everybody knoe that
understand that
tp yelah
we cannot demand more on others
but we have to be more flexible,
more tough
xyah la nk terasa2 kalo bnde tu kecik je
hmmm
tp kan
seyes i was totally feel offended
my intention was none other than to please them
and again
apa gunenye puaskan hati manusia
they'll never satisfy
but then jgn la sje xjge hati mereka
cume berpada2 la dan xyah terlalu sgt takut diri x memenuhi kehendak org laen sbb ada yg lg penting untuk dipenuhi tuntutannya..
terhadap Dia Yang Maha Pemurah dan Maha Pengasih

chop! apa kaitan ngan letter-type nih..
ok2 mcm ni,so i try to solve this prob of mine,
i ask for advice,from 1 of my frens,a close fren... she said why dont u go face to face, slow talk ngan org tu
discuss...properly
dr simpan takut2 lame2 nnt jd busuk (<-- ni penambahan eh)
my reply: rse mcm bnde tu terlalu kecik untuk di slowtalkkn
ignore je la
she said: boleh ke ignore je
.
..
...thinking
..
.
masa ni la i took the decision to write...well not letter but short msg on phone, texting
walopon kurang yakin belah sana memahami kandungan hati yg nk disampaikan
tp try jgk,sbb sampai ble ak nk tarik muka 14?
hmm

then this make me think
mybe im the letter-type
i dont knoe
before this, i always think that im not one.
prefer to speak directly,open la knon..
tp rite now
huhu mybe I AM a letter type,
i cant speak directly
for i fear i might cant take it
its myb too heavy, too harsh
my heart is glass,
fragile...
it cant handle harsh things, it will break,it will shatter...
hmmm
but whatever it is
i try and try
to be strong
x kesah la letter-type ke x
yg penting i should have confidence in me...
i should tell if theres something wrong
bcoz if i dont
things get worse,for the time being and for the future...

and i already got the reply..
and as i expected, the reply was unexpected...
but i think i better keep it to my self..

~ ya Allah kuatkanlah hati hambaMu ini, teguhkan ia bile berhadapan dgn dugaan2 sementara dunia, jdkn ia hancur luluh bile mengenangkan kesalahannya pada Penciptanya...ameen~