Diary of a non-wimpy kid

I remembered when I was a little kid,
Several years in age,
I wasn't much of a good girl.
I was manipulative, a dominator.
I didn't pay attention to my friends' feeling.
I made my friends look bad, unintentionally.


Am I a psychopath?

The Things that I've just noticed about myself, #case 1

It's true people can't read minds.but people can read vibes.

And I can't stand those who tell lies.

고백 - Confession

Something makes me smile to myself today…

This morning,

On strolling after a long jog,

Unknowingly, I'm singing to the lyrics of 2NE1’s LONELY…

You know, this part,

"Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely"

Haha!!!

Strolling along the beach alone by myself, I guess the lyrics fit me precisely.

So lets just "Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely" ~~~

:)
Peace (^_^)V !!!
and Chow~

That kind of human being

every person given different circumstances
forcing them into yours
and judge them
is really not a good idea

you'll make them suffocate
and really want to get away from you
and you really think it would work your way?

 and this is the circumstances that I'm in as of now.

Shame on me...

Salam
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every morning of my final paper
i always got this nervous breakdown.
freaking out about what will be asked out in those papers..
and what if i couldn't answer even a single one of it..
what if i failed this year?
what if that..
what if this..

yeah, looking at my preparation of study, i really should be having that...
last-minute-studying it is..
i know, bad me, bad me..

each times,i always pray to God
requesting that may in this time of exam, i will have questions that i have read on,
or at least I've done the past year of it,
and every time He surprises me a sweet surprise.
esp when I'm freaking out the most,
however believe me, nearly every time, the reality goes way far beyond my imagination.
the questions i mean, it really goes off from what I've expected..
like i expect the Qs would be long essays of the things that i haven't covered but then it turned out to be just a simple matching up of phrases.
can you imagine how happy i am,

i don't say i could answer all of it, with flying colors, no..
but at least it is of a little help to me..
and to my and your amazement this has happen many times before,
esp when i least prepare for my exam...
T____T (touched!)

and being in this kind of situation, i think it's really appropriate ( more of a must i think) for me to show my gratitude by starting to prepare, i mean study earlier for the next paper right?
but then, that's what I'm ashamed of myself right now...
i never learn from mistakes,from graciousness given by God.
that effort of showing gratitude,i never did.
He is gracious enough towards me all this time, even THIS time around,
but me,why i kept studying last-minute,
why i couldn't discipline myself.
and shame on me..

thank you Allah,
indeed You never leave your believer...
and deeply I'm grateful for everything that I've had all my life..

Syukr Lillah~

O Allah,Make Me Strong

salam

fragile moment.
when it comes to mother.

i may be laughing on the outside
but i cry alone on the inside.

i tell friends about it
yet the heart seems to be more in pain
more afraid
of that thing that shouldn't be said
of that thing that i wouldn't say.

i tell the heart to be strong
but it doesn't listen.

i tell Allah to make it strong
for only by doing that
this heart seems to be able to make it.

O Allah for whatever happens
i know it happen for the sake of the believers
and with that
i leave everything
everything
in the hand of you
O Allah.

고해 by 임 재 범

salam..
                                                                                          

I've never been touched by a song for quite a while now, but this is really..
i first heard this on Winwin, in fact i saw it with the original singer,Yim Jae Bum coming as Guest on that show.
actually, it's not the first time to hear that name. but to see him for the first, it struck me.
something about this man amazed me...
and his voice is obviously no joke i tell ya.
this song titled Confession, 고해 in Hangul, i already heard the recorded version but i tell you what, the live version is much much Much More COOL! :D
so enjoy it!



어찌합니까
What should be done
어떻게 할까요
What should I do
감히 제가 감히 그녀를 사랑합니다
I dare, I dare to love her
조용히 나조차 나조차도 모르게
To live quietly and pretending to have forgotten
잊은척 산다는건 살아도 죽은겁니다
That is a life that is just like death

세상의 비난도 미쳐보일 모습도
The criticism of the world and the portrayal of me as a madman
모두 다 알지만
I know of it all
그게 두렵지만 사랑합니다
I am afraid of it all but I love you

어디에 있나요
Where are you?
제 얘기 정말 들리시나요
Can you really hear me?
그럼 피 흘리는 가엾은 제 사랑을 알고 계신가요
Then do you know of my poor, bleeding love?
용서해주세요
Please forgive me
벌하신다면 저 받을께요
If you were to punish, I will gladly accept it
허나 그녀만은 제게 그녀 하나만 허락해 주소서
But, her, please allow me, just her and her only

출처:임재범 (Lim Jae Bum) - 고해 (Confession)

Edited:
for those who read this post, i know at the beginning of the song, the intro and the choir were like the one of the church's but, it's not like i'm touched by a church song. if you listen to the original version you'll find no intro and the choir at the middle.it's just a love song. and i'm impressed both by the song and lyrics and the singing voice :))

엄마

I'm not a good daughter..
No, not at all.
I couldn't even answer my mother
When she said those words.

"Dh mu belaja la rrajin duk dinung..rrajin sket"

I'm afraid to say yes.
I'm afraid that thatwill make me a liar.
To my mother.

Mother,know that there's never a moment that this daughter didn't miss you ..
there's never a moment that this daughter didn't feel sorry towards you..

Mother,I'm so sorry to you because I'm not a good daughter to you.
T_T